when i teared;
thats when i know he really meant alot to me,
thats when i know im afraid to lose him,
thats when i know im falling deeper for him;
thats when i know how much he loves me as,
he hugged me and said how heartpain he was when he wiped my tears.
i love you,i really do.

DISAPPOINTMENT.
4yrs of commitment in this company and yet disappointment is all i gotten.
firstly,my damn boss refused to approval my leave from 7-10th feb;
which delayed my insurance training.
secondly,she said she rather pay me than to allow me to clear my leave.
okay,so nvm ive accepted all these nonsensical thingy.
BUT,thirdly she removed my name from the CNY dinner!!!
im like so WTF? need to be so realistic?
lucky the organisor called and asked me the reason for not attending.
i said im! who say im not?
after much discussion,so i know they removed my name cause of my resignation.
SO DISAPPOINTED.
im alrdy giving up the 2nd bonus but she wanna be calculative over the $1-200 dinner.
imagine if the organisor didnt call me?
i'll be a laughing stock,arriving there but wasnt allow to enter.
ITS SO WTFFFFFFFFFFF.

but its okay,all these just made me even more determined to leave.
be it whether i can excel in insurance line or not;
i'll never ever come back in this damn company!!!!!!
still ask if i can come back and help during IT SHOW in march.
3 words for you TAN GU GU!!!!!

RECENT HAPPENINGS.
got to meet up with baos like FINALLY.
the 2 Aussie girls are finally back in town;
but gg back like real sooooooooooooooon.
both of them are still the same old pattern!!
miss them v much when we get to gather in full house.
a pity that ah le couldent join us ;(
had a surprise bday cake for qin;
and when the waitor came behind qin and looked at xiaobao,
xiaobao went "huh whose bday? wrong table."
we were like "EXCUSE ME?!?!?!" HAHAHAHAHA


enjoyed the dinner though its a short and simple one.
really hope another full house gathering will come SOON!!
have a safe trip back xiaobao and enjoy Barcelona trip! ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIN ;)

STAY PRETTY AND CHEERFUL ALWAYS!!

planned a surprise bday cake for ks's mom!

it was a successful one cause i saw her shocked expression! HAHAHA.

ks was initially pek cek because we kept changing the storeys.LOL.

she texted me "hey sam,saw me? my mom is coming alrdy!!"

got a small present for aunty and hope she likes it!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY ;)

祝你年年有余!!!

HAPPY 4TH TO ME AND BF ;)
an super belated post but still i posted it!! hahaha.
thanks for the small present!
i had deliberately acted like i got nth for him,
but actually i planning to give all for 5th ;)
few things alrdy cost almost $300.how not to broke?
but luckily,he wont be seeing this post!
thanks for being there for me all these while;
im lucky to meet someone like you.
loveyou! ;)

SIGH.
grandpa passed on on 21/1/2012,11.02am in KTPH.
so sudden when hes alrdy getting better;
transferred from ICU to normal ward.
when he still can kiao ka,scratched his forehead etc.
sad that grandpa couldent hold on till after cny.
hope hes far better at somewhere else now.

i'll miss you grandpa.
im not allowed to go friend's house for 100days.
gonna miss out all the fun during cny,
ang bao collection,usuals gatherings,gamblings.
真的是一点也笑不出来.

GET WELL SOON GRANDPA ;(
just came back from visiting grandpa;
i was massaging his legs until half ;
when i saw my so called "cousin-in-law" teared.
then my eyes become teary too ;(
i can see how much pain grandpa is gg through...
i saw him frowning jus now and when i touched his bloated stomach;
i really feel like crying.....


grandpa,pull it throughhhhhh.
at least a last cny for you.
i know life's a torture for you now but you gotta know;
everyone is waiting for you to get well.
GOD BLESS.

REMINISCING.
many months have passed.
things blended,pain eased;
but those memories will never be forgotten.
just recently,your text came and flashbacks recalled.
suddenly got affected recalling the decision you have made.
one sentence that i'll never forget is....
"sorry,i just cant be there for you YET"
6years of friendship exchanged for such a sentence.
even if one day we were to bump into each other;
i guess we'll be strangers with memories.
all these while,no matter how much i wanted to drop you a text,
i always stop myself from doing that.we both shld move on.
with no grudges,but i truly hope your doing fine right now;
making sure that you wont regret the decision you have made.
because,time will never bring back all those wrong decisions.
perhaps,its a absolutely right decision for you.
想知道你现在过得好吗?
也许没有了我是种解脱.

UNDERWATER WORLD ;)
finally,a break after M9!!!
its been really long ever since i last enjoyed one full day!!
as planned,we headed to Underwater World!
so sad that we didnt get to watch the dolphin's show;
reason being? THEY NEED TO HAVE SEX DURING THIS PERIOD!
its so.....LMFAO.
however,still enjoy my day out with love.
my legs were really breaking at evening time;
i feel like im in heaven when i get to sit down!

we even get to feed the stingrays.
stupid stingray! makes me have phobia now manz.

an sleepy stingray.HAHAHAHAHA.



oh i forgot to mention!
we got this Manu couple tee and wore it out tgt!
no choice la since my boy is a Manu hardcore fan zZzzzzzz.
the next tee we'll get tgt will be Man city Away tee!! HAHAHA.
to conclude,i enjoyed the whole journey throughout.
thanks for every little thing.i appreciate it ALOTTTT.
love you! ;)