started off.....
nobody as a newborn baby haven learn how to walk;
yet alrdy wanting to learn how to run or jump.
even the most successful man started off from scratch;
been through many ups and downs to reach their final stage.
i wanna be one of them,been through the storms and reach the rainbow.
i wanna be one of the most successful daughter out there;
and allows my parents to point their finger at me,
telling their friends "thats my daughter,im proud of her." ;)

FEEL SO <3
an advanced bday present from mom!
and thats also my ever first present from her!
i was wondering what was she doing in the storeroom!
feel soooooo f touched when she was wrapping my present!
she even got me my fav color......OH MOM!
feel so loved,really ;')

mom said :you need to have a presentable pen in this line
thankyou mommmmmmm.appreciated it ttm!!!
on a brighter note,ive finally passed my f papers!!!!
am offciailly an financial consultant in AIA! ;)
time to get serious and keep my biz rolling!

FINALLY!
ive completed my 4 days of foundation training at Alexandra;
its 4days str like omg,so damn far and the new covered shoes,
seriously tortured me throughout!!
but now im done with it;and guess what ive learnt?
INSURANCE IS ALL ABT LOVE.hahahahaha
so for ppl who are deprived of love,pls find me.
really really hope i'll pass HI tml,
its gonna be my last attempt and i wanna start off from scratch!
i wanna achieve my financial goals and fly high up!
WISH ME LUCK EVERYBODY~~

OMGGGGG.

i really wanna shout "YES AH!! 终于解脱了啊!!!"

end of my 1.5 months notice in this damn company.

ive FINALLY,out of this freaking place and;

im gonne prove that i'll do so so so much better!!!!

4 consecutive days of foundation training from 28feb-2march;

last paper to go on 6/3 and off im off on my new career!!!

I JUST CANT WAIT TO EXCEL.

on a brighter note,i spent my first valentine with bf.

hopefully,more to come ;)

the boy was trying to make me laugh when my dad called.

dad: vin said hes coming our house to put sth,still not coming?

me: huh? put what thing?

dad: how i know.

me: HAHAHAHAHA okay i call him now.

thankyou so much for this surprise.

always appreciate every lil thing you do for me.

really hope,we can last longgggg ;)

went for Duck And Hippo tours,

still not enough time to cover all places! hahaha.

cam whoring on every small spots.

to end our day,bf's dinner treat at Red House!

love the seafood!!!

i always enjoy my day whenever,whereever im with you.
always nv fail to do stupid things to make me laugh.
(eps the tiger pose whenever he makes me angry!)
HAHAHAHAHA.

i love you;

thankyou for being part of me;
your existence meant so much!
i wanna last long with youuuuuuuuuu<3

when i teared;
thats when i know he really meant alot to me,
thats when i know im afraid to lose him,
thats when i know im falling deeper for him;
thats when i know how much he loves me as,
he hugged me and said how heartpain he was when he wiped my tears.
i love you,i really do.

DISAPPOINTMENT.
4yrs of commitment in this company and yet disappointment is all i gotten.
firstly,my damn boss refused to approval my leave from 7-10th feb;
which delayed my insurance training.
secondly,she said she rather pay me than to allow me to clear my leave.
okay,so nvm ive accepted all these nonsensical thingy.
BUT,thirdly she removed my name from the CNY dinner!!!
im like so WTF? need to be so realistic?
lucky the organisor called and asked me the reason for not attending.
i said im! who say im not?
after much discussion,so i know they removed my name cause of my resignation.
SO DISAPPOINTED.
im alrdy giving up the 2nd bonus but she wanna be calculative over the $1-200 dinner.
imagine if the organisor didnt call me?
i'll be a laughing stock,arriving there but wasnt allow to enter.
ITS SO WTFFFFFFFFFFF.

but its okay,all these just made me even more determined to leave.
be it whether i can excel in insurance line or not;
i'll never ever come back in this damn company!!!!!!
still ask if i can come back and help during IT SHOW in march.
3 words for you TAN GU GU!!!!!

RECENT HAPPENINGS.
got to meet up with baos like FINALLY.
the 2 Aussie girls are finally back in town;
but gg back like real sooooooooooooooon.
both of them are still the same old pattern!!
miss them v much when we get to gather in full house.
a pity that ah le couldent join us ;(
had a surprise bday cake for qin;
and when the waitor came behind qin and looked at xiaobao,
xiaobao went "huh whose bday? wrong table."
we were like "EXCUSE ME?!?!?!" HAHAHAHAHA


enjoyed the dinner though its a short and simple one.
really hope another full house gathering will come SOON!!
have a safe trip back xiaobao and enjoy Barcelona trip! ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIN ;)

STAY PRETTY AND CHEERFUL ALWAYS!!

planned a surprise bday cake for ks's mom!

it was a successful one cause i saw her shocked expression! HAHAHA.

ks was initially pek cek because we kept changing the storeys.LOL.

she texted me "hey sam,saw me? my mom is coming alrdy!!"

got a small present for aunty and hope she likes it!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY ;)

祝你年年有余!!!

HAPPY 4TH TO ME AND BF ;)
an super belated post but still i posted it!! hahaha.
thanks for the small present!
i had deliberately acted like i got nth for him,
but actually i planning to give all for 5th ;)
few things alrdy cost almost $300.how not to broke?
but luckily,he wont be seeing this post!
thanks for being there for me all these while;
im lucky to meet someone like you.
loveyou! ;)

SIGH.
grandpa passed on on 21/1/2012,11.02am in KTPH.
so sudden when hes alrdy getting better;
transferred from ICU to normal ward.
when he still can kiao ka,scratched his forehead etc.
sad that grandpa couldent hold on till after cny.
hope hes far better at somewhere else now.

i'll miss you grandpa.
im not allowed to go friend's house for 100days.
gonna miss out all the fun during cny,
ang bao collection,usuals gatherings,gamblings.
真的是一点也笑不出来.

GET WELL SOON GRANDPA ;(
just came back from visiting grandpa;
i was massaging his legs until half ;
when i saw my so called "cousin-in-law" teared.
then my eyes become teary too ;(
i can see how much pain grandpa is gg through...
i saw him frowning jus now and when i touched his bloated stomach;
i really feel like crying.....


grandpa,pull it throughhhhhh.
at least a last cny for you.
i know life's a torture for you now but you gotta know;
everyone is waiting for you to get well.
GOD BLESS.

REMINISCING.
many months have passed.
things blended,pain eased;
but those memories will never be forgotten.
just recently,your text came and flashbacks recalled.
suddenly got affected recalling the decision you have made.
one sentence that i'll never forget is....
"sorry,i just cant be there for you YET"
6years of friendship exchanged for such a sentence.
even if one day we were to bump into each other;
i guess we'll be strangers with memories.
all these while,no matter how much i wanted to drop you a text,
i always stop myself from doing that.we both shld move on.
with no grudges,but i truly hope your doing fine right now;
making sure that you wont regret the decision you have made.
because,time will never bring back all those wrong decisions.
perhaps,its a absolutely right decision for you.
想知道你现在过得好吗?
也许没有了我是种解脱.

UNDERWATER WORLD ;)
finally,a break after M9!!!
its been really long ever since i last enjoyed one full day!!
as planned,we headed to Underwater World!
so sad that we didnt get to watch the dolphin's show;
reason being? THEY NEED TO HAVE SEX DURING THIS PERIOD!
its so.....LMFAO.
however,still enjoy my day out with love.
my legs were really breaking at evening time;
i feel like im in heaven when i get to sit down!

we even get to feed the stingrays.
stupid stingray! makes me have phobia now manz.

an sleepy stingray.HAHAHAHAHA.



oh i forgot to mention!
we got this Manu couple tee and wore it out tgt!
no choice la since my boy is a Manu hardcore fan zZzzzzzz.
the next tee we'll get tgt will be Man city Away tee!! HAHAHA.
to conclude,i enjoyed the whole journey throughout.
thanks for every little thing.i appreciate it ALOTTTT.
love you! ;)

ADV XMAS XCHANGE! ;)
got this day planned long ago,
and even got saddist jun to fake an MC for work!!
i got my pressie way before the day on xchange!
so guess who got my present?
SADDIST JUNNNNN!! hahahhahaha.
be appreciative okayzxzxzxzx.
had steamboat,poker and back homeeeee.

as usual,i ended my day off with a smile to sleep!
we always have tons to update;
tons of jokes to crack;
tons of lameness to solve and laugh at!
they are the ones,whom i know i'll never lose.
no matter how tough my life gets;
they'll always be the one there for meeeeeeee.
idk how to describe the kind of closeness ive with them;
its like no matter how long we didnt meet or contact;
there wouldent be any distance AT ALL! ;)
they are the ones whom i do not need to do anything;
yet the friendship will remain as close <33

;)
vin: what you doing ah?
me: blog hopping lor!
vin: you got play blog one meh?
me: no ah.view view only.

hahahahaha.
privaccccccccccccyyyyyyyyyyyy.
dont wanna let him see the privacy space of mine!
find it if he can! hahahha.
thankyou for being who you are.
im being myself whenever im with you;
no actings or on show or anything!
a healthy r/s is being comfortable with the right one.
thanks for everything! <3

apologetic.
sometimes,i cant help but to blame myself for being selfish at times.
its like i know i shldent be doing this but i got no choice at all.
i mean,what can i do?
its problematic when im in sucha dilemma,
its wrong to do this and even more wrong to do that.
i wish,i can tell them my thoughts;
the reason why im being so selfish at times.
but if they were to know whats the reason,
they will yell all the vulgarities i ought to deserve.
deep down,im sorry guys ;(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ;)
happy birthday once again!!!
one more yr and your gg to be officially legal!!!
the key to freedom.HAHAHAHA.
i must really say life with you is really good and fun;
those fun and happy times tgt are really memorable.
eps when we both know we are true at all times!
thanks for being such a great friend all along.
loveeeeeeeeeyou! xoxo ;)

14th ;)

been coughing like a dog for 1 week!!
i was coughing when i visited the doc,
the cough came after i drank the medi,weird? YES SUPER!!!
been avoiding on those heaty food,chilled drinks;
but still my cough dont seem to get anywhere better.
i hope it will be fully recovered before the start of IT FAIR!!!
dont let my $38.50 goes wasted!
i wanna get well and eat lotsa of good food SOOOOOOOOOOON.

life has been good with all the true ones with me;
through thunder or storms;
whether rain or shine;
i know they will always be with me!
and of course my bf too ;)
im lucky that i met him.
he gives me something that no one could,thats Happiness.
happy 14th ;)

thankful.
im really thankful that those who ought to leave,they left.
im really lucky that those who ought to stay,they stayed.
they were the ones who went through the storms and rain with me,
they never fail to show me their words of comfort and love.
im blessed,im really do.

I FINALLY DID IT!!! ;)

i finally passed my damn first paper!!!

omfg,i did it!!! i did it!!!! like the 4th times!

i swear i never study so hard before,not even my Os!!

i didnt even tear when i failed my maths and sci;

but i teared when i failed my paper twice.

its really tedious,when ive to study after 9hrs of work,

seriously,now i finally feel the pain of those who half work/study.

i never thought i'll pass today's paper.

fyi,im not trying to hao lian but serious!!!!

it came out alot of ali baba ques,even calculation ques,for the v first time!!

i didnt even bring calculator! omg,i can only use mental calculation!

i dilly dally,check over and over again just to stall time.........

because im afraid to click submit!

the moment i saw the word "PASS" omg, ive never feel so happy before!!!!!

okay,done with my happiness.

next paper is on 22nd Nov with a new book of 17chaps.

im left with 3more days to rest and back to mugging period!

lastly,thanks to my bf who has always been with me!

he went to the temply early morn to pray for me;

yes its abit orh piang,but who the hell will be so nice like him.

i doubt i'll make such efforts for him.

he waited 2hrs for me till my paper is over;

and we went for an awesome movie "Real Steel"

YES,tonight is the best night ever since Oct!!!!!!!

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

p/s: iloveyou ;)

you and me.
i dont believe in forever;
but i hope,
we will be able to make it through!

thanks for being part of me♥♥

HOPEFULLY.
i failed consecutively 3times for my paper.
my next retake is on 18th oct.
LAST TRY!!!!! I WANNA MAKE IT LAST!!!!